Around 7 years ago, I
was in a mentally abusive relationship with a self-addictive individual who I
had allowed to take an emotional toll on my sense of self and confidence as a
loving, caring person. I resorted to writing a poem in this time of grief
(shown at the end of this post), gesturing to the Universe that I was in need
of relief proclaiming I was ready to become proactive in the cure.
I think there is a time
in all of our lives where we have allowed another to take our joy, causing us
to forget who we are and that the God of our faith has a mate for us, or
a purpose that fills that void or possibly an activity that will challenge our
spirit, bring love inside our total being and direct us onto the path we were
designed for at birth. "Another" is different for us all and
can take the form of a relationship, social group, occupation or dependency.
Recognizing that nobody
IS somebody creates a turning point where we begin to acknowledge that healing
is imminent through choice and understanding that we ALL deserve to be loved by
someone, give/share love or perform loving acts into the community and for
society. All these positive energies are converged into the soul and
illuminated by fashioning our individual aura.
Sharing is caring and
if this message is meant for you, receive my blessings and know that you are
worthy to take the next steps to shed nobody and create your somebody...
Just call me nobody…
An invisible icon on
your desktop; only the user knows where the program is run.
Just call me nobody…the
shut down in my system has just begun
I have always wondered
why I am led into one-sided relationships
Just call me nobody…the
ability for tolerance and oversight, I can no longer permit
No one that is close to
you knows my name; everyone in my life has spoken to you or seen your face
Just call me nobody; in
your photograph, no special person fills that accompanying space
The best way to release
yourself from bondage is to set another free
Just call me nobody…I
know that before I can feel happiness, with you I cannot be
So many fond memories,
yet the future is uncertain
The end of another
chapter, the last act closes the curtain
Just call me nobody, do
you remember me?
You’ll never see my
emotions, there for your needs
Caught in the dark, afraid
to confront the light
No reason to commit to
me because, sarcastically, I have all the time in the world
“Nobody” tolerates all
heartache and is the continuous caretaker
Forgiving,
non-judgmental, with its own heartache unattended
Won’t place blame but
knows who’s at fault
Disappointed once
again, but that’s Ok, I can take it
And who takes care of
nobody?
Nobody...because no one
even knows that nobody is suffering
In summary, a nobody
must learn to take care of oneself…or forever live in sorrow
Believe in your
strength, let go today, don’t wait for tomorrow
by
Michelle J Epperson
August
5, 2003
