When nobody IS somebody

Around 7 years ago, I was in a mentally abusive relationship with a self-addictive individual who I had allowed to take an emotional toll on my sense of self and confidence as a loving, caring person.  I resorted to writing a poem in this time of grief (shown at the end of this post), gesturing to the Universe that I was in need of relief proclaiming I was ready to become proactive in the cure.

I think there is a time in all of our lives where we have allowed another to take our joy, causing us to forget who we are and that the God of our faith has a mate for us,  or a purpose that fills that void or possibly an activity that will challenge our spirit, bring love inside our total being and direct us onto the path we were designed for at birth.  "Another" is different for us all and can take the form of a relationship, social group, occupation or dependency.

Recognizing that nobody IS somebody creates a turning point where we begin to acknowledge that healing is imminent through choice and understanding that we ALL deserve to be loved by someone, give/share love or perform loving acts into the community and for society.  All these positive energies are converged into the soul and illuminated by fashioning our individual aura.  

Sharing is caring and if this message is meant for you, receive my blessings and know that you are worthy to take the next steps to shed nobody and create your somebody...

 

Just call me nobody…

An invisible icon on your desktop; only the user knows where the program is run.

Just call me nobody…the shut down in my system has just begun

I have always wondered why I am led into one-sided relationships

Just call me nobody…the ability for tolerance and oversight, I can no longer permit

No one that is close to you knows my name; everyone in my life has spoken to you or seen your face

Just call me nobody; in your photograph, no special person fills that accompanying space

The best way to release yourself from bondage is to set another free

Just call me nobody…I know that before I can feel happiness, with you I cannot be

So many fond memories, yet the future is uncertain

The end of another chapter, the last act closes the curtain

Just call me nobody, do you remember me? 

You’ll never see my emotions, there for your needs

Caught in the dark, afraid to confront the light

No reason to commit to me because, sarcastically, I have all the time in the world

“Nobody” tolerates all heartache and is the continuous caretaker

Forgiving, non-judgmental, with its own heartache unattended

Won’t place blame but knows who’s at fault

Disappointed once again, but that’s Ok, I can take it

And who takes care of nobody? 

Nobody...because no one even knows that nobody is suffering

In summary, a nobody must learn to take care of oneself…or forever live in sorrow

Believe in your strength, let go today, don’t wait for tomorrow

by Michelle J Epperson

August 5, 2003